“Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another,
I truly believe that life is cyclical. I don't know how it happens, but I never feel like goodbye is really goodbye in this world. With the advent of social media and increased connectivity over it, it's true that no one really leaves your life. Before, relationships would fade into the ether and once the person exited your life, they ceased to exist; I wouldn't see the person, so therefore they no longer existed to me.
But now, I have these amazing things that pop up on my Facebook that show me memories from my past. Over the last few weeks of me having enabled this feature (I'm behind, I know), I wake up with a notification from Facebook reminding me of what happened on that specific day, last year, two years and even three years prior. This has been both an amazing walk down memory lane and a heart-wrenchingly terrible exercise in regret and disappointment. I don't always regret lost relationships, and I try as much as I can to move on from it, but everyone has something, I'd like to think.
Either way, through the bad and sad, I've been able to find some joy. The last couple weeks I've had several instances where these memories have helped me reconnect with people from my past. With a few years distance from them, I feel better equipped to go back and revisit, to reconsider and to understand why things may have fallen apart. I also have summoned and found courage (which I may not have had before) to lay down my pride, and to reach out.
I always remind myself that if I remember and think about a person, or if lament over the loss of a person, it may be unresolved. I take the occurrences of the last few weeks as super positive and a sign that I'm growing (hopefully) through certain emotional quirks I had before.
I wonder what the next few weeks have in store for me?